I’m so confused when it comes to love. I’m in love with my best friend and it hurts. I’m not ready to be in a relationship, but the rest of me wants them. I don’t know what to do. I love them so much. More than anything. I have for years. But I’m scared of losing my freedom.

I’m sick of being in love with someone who barely notices me. I’m sick of constantly wanting the best for her and wanting to be by her side to see her succeed, only to have her look at me as someone she barely knows anymore and someone she has no intention of getting to know better. I’m sick of this love and I want a new one.

I love my man, but he has learning difficulties. It’s really frustrating sometimes when he doesn’t get hints or clues. I had to tell him the other day what a common object was. He’s the best man I’ve met and I do love him. I just can’t deal with it sometimes when he acts like a child. I know it’s not his fault. He’s truly beautiful. I think this makes me shallow, but I long for adult conversation and sometimes intimacy. He just doesn’t know how. He tries, and that’s one of the reasons I love him.

You were supposed to be light. Not the darkness that has plagued you. Where did you go that corrupted the soul I cherished for so long? How can I shine the light and not have the shadows come for you? I miss you. I hope I can find you again one day. Till we meet again best friend…

I’m so confused when it comes to love. I’m in love with my best friend and it hurts. I’m not ready to be in a relationship but the rest of me wants them. I don’t know what to do. I love them so much. More than anything. I have for years. But I’m scared of losing my freedom.