Here I Am Covered in Bruises Once Again

As I sit here with two black eyes, I wonder how I got here.  Not so long ago I would have laughed and called you a liar if you told me that I would be in this position.  I was always strong, always the one to say, “That could never be me.”  Now here I am covered in bruises once again.  I have left so many times, only to crawl right back shortly after.  He lies and talks to other women and I still stay.  I went to a domestic violence shelter and got kicked out because of him. 

I feel nothing anymore.  It’s like I have no emotions left.  I’m just an empty shell.  I’m not happy, I’m not sad, I’m just nothing.  I’m purely just existing.  Because of all this I have no more friends.  They were just tired of seeing this keep happening.  I know everyone says, “Why don’t you just leave? Just move away.”  That’s much easier said than done.  We have a baby together and his family would make sure I never have anything to do with my son if I left.  I’m just so tired.  I just want to be happy again.

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