I Need Mental Health Assistance, But I Go W/O Because I Fear People’s Judgment.

I work full-time, support my mother, and am finishing my degree.  But I still feel like a failure. I have been employee of the month, have dozens of glowing customer compliments, but still feel like a lazy, good for nothing POS, even though my bosses have told me multiple times that I am one of the most dedicated and valuable employees in the store. I still feel undeserving of anything but a swift hard kick in the arse. I have no idea why I feel this way, and every day I try harder to be better than the person I was yesterday. To be the kind of person that I would look up to, but I still wind up feeling like scum. I want to reach out and get help, but don’t because I don’t want to be written off as a “whiney, overly-entitled little attention whore.”

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