I Want Him To Want Me, But Why Would He? I’m Epileptic, Fat, And Super Shy.

I’ve known you since we met at work about a year and a half ago. I instantly fell in love with you. But I’m so negative about myself that I don’t know what else to do or how else to think. I am madly in love with you, and part of me, based on our times together at work, feels like you feel something for me as well. Which couldn’t make me happier. But every time I even think of possibly being with you or you even feeling the same way, all I can think is “Why?”

There are so many beautiful girls out there for you. Why would you settle for me? I’m epileptic, and people think I’m fat and weird for being so shy and quiet. Nobody understands how I feel. I tried killing myself years ago but did not succeed. I know it’s wrong, but there are times when I just feel like I will be alone forever, and I just want to end it all. I just know he’s the love of my life, but I’m afraid that if I hear different from him, I might go back to my old ways.

I’m so very depressed.  Just to hear him say he feels the same would make me feel like a whole new person, despite the things going on around me. I don’t know what to do anymore.

image: Tony Alter