I’m in love with my best friend. I told her a few months ago, and she told me that she wasn’t ready for a relationship. I taught myself to think that I will never have her, and I got myself with other girls, and it was the worst experience of my life. Recently however, she told me that if she were to die, she would want me to die with her. I still don’t understand how you can give someone so much without receiving much in return. I don’t sleep because I have begun to think that I’m useless and that I’m just desperate for the impossible. My friends always turn on me, and on my worst days, they’re meaner to me than usual. I don’t know what to do with my life at this point. I’m not good at anything. I’m failing half my classes, and I can’t make a sports team to save my life. I don’t see my use anymore.