I feel like I’m suffocating. I need air. I need space. But there is nobody around me. I am completely alone. My family is off on vacation, as are my friends. It is so sad because the only reason that I am all alone is because I care too much. I care too much, and I always let people push me around and use me. I’ve tried to harden up, but when I do, I feel so empty and heartless. I feel like that anyway though.
Ever since I dated my last boyfriend I just can’t seem to get excited by any other guy. I remember when there was a certain high I would get after kissing someone or brushing up against their arm. Now it’s nothing. I fell in love with him, and when we broke up I think he took my heart with him. I know that sounds so cheesy. I am not saying that I want to end my life, but I am so close to just giving up. I have lost control of not only my life, but also the small things that make me happy. I just want to be happy.
image- Pascal Maramis