I’m sorry I don’t call. I am so ashamed of myself. When I remember that I haven’t called in months, I sink myself into a black hole of self-loathing, then I don’t call for months after the realization. Now you are getting sent to a nursing home for Alzheimer’s. I am so sorry that I haven’t been more involved in your life. Time passes me in the blink of an eye, and I am too sick to realize it until it’s too late. But just know that I never stopped caring. I love you Grandma; so much, and I am so sad for the day you won’t remember.