My Ex-Husband Was Abusive, But He Was My Security, & I Miss Him

My ex-husband was abusive to say the least. But at the end of the night it was still him and I there together. No matter how many times he cheated, we still were there together, and I’m still trying to get over him. I don’t understand why he had to cheat. We’ve been divorced almost a year, but I miss him still. He was my security.

We lost a child together, and I’m having trouble getting past him. I don’t know how to do this. I sometimes wish I could forget him, but he has no one else to help him, and I can’t seem to let him go. Even though I deserve better, I just miss him so very much. 

I wish I could do much better. I just can’t get past him. Life just doesn’t seem to be the same. I hope I can move on. I seem to be stuck. I want to hold on to what I need to let go of. I think my lost child would have been hurt to have her parents parted. I just want better, but I can’t let him go.

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