I went to see my doctor about a week ago. He checked me over (I am 2 months pregnant), and at the end of my visit he sat me down and said, “I am very sorry, but there is a chance that your baby has Edwards syndrome.” I think I am in such a blur that I can’t even properly remember this sh*t! I haven’t told my boyfriend yet. As I am only 20 and he is 21, I don’t think we will be able to survive this as a couple. I feel sick and I can’t stand it. Somehow I have killed the completely dependent living thing inside of me! I don’t know why, and my doctor has probably told me, but I can’t remember it because my head has been spinning. My boyfriend and family have noticed that something is up with me, but I always say that nothing’s up, and that I have no one to talk to. I just feel like running away, or killing myself. God. This world is messed up.