The One That Got Away: How I Regret Choosing Him Over You

I hate that we were never in the right place to be together and when we were both finally in that place and ready to commit, I chose him over you.  Now I see that you are happy and engaged and all I can think is that you were the only person I have ever loved.  I miss the time when we spent hours together.  Even if it was in secret.  I messed us up.  And I hate myself for that.  And I hate myself for knowing that you will never love me again.