I hate that we were never in the right place to be together and when we were both finally in that place and ready to commit, I chose him over you. Now I see that you are happy and engaged and all I can think is that you were the only person I have ever loved. I miss the time when we spent hours together. Even if it was in secret. I f***** it up. And I hate myself for that. And I hate myself for knowing that you will never love me again.